Blue sky

Sometimes life is just...

unpredictable.

What you told me explained my confusion over months. And I am filled with joy and positive momentum, that it eases your mind, and (fyi) it eases mine too.


Blue sky ♥

And as I read what I wrote...

And as I read what I wrote...

I thought I should be an architectural photographer.


because those are the people that deceive influence my young and innocent mind back then.

and I gotta say it's NOT that I regretted doing architecture. It is just that a lot had been going on.

live love life.

This Archi talk.

Why did I choose to do architecture in the first place.

why why why.

and i wonder what would I be doing instead if this stupid decision wasnt made.

I didn't choose architecture because it starts with 'A' and thus in the first page of the 'course selection' booklet.

I know I am a bad reader, but Seriously I didn't do that.

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Architecture.

It attracted me and never cease to attract me. I loved architecture, and still love architecture.

It is just that, sometimes... I realised I didn't love architecture that much that I am prepare and willing to devote my life to it. That doesn't feel right.

Someone told me that s/he envy those that is willing to and are able to dedicate to architecture, even as young as a student.

I told him/ her that I don't, despite the fact that I envy people quite a lot ( and i do mean 'envy' and not similar negative substitute). I just don't see the meaning of this whole lifelessness and stuff, like how you treat your an hour nap as a precious god gifted break that you deserve after staying up for three thousand hours, or a peek on an episode of desperate housewife as the best entertainment ever after spending a week with yellow trace and no other thing.

And that people just have to have something else that they are passionate about.

even if it's dotA.


This is just plain emo crap.

and so, dear archies, no offence if you love your assignments.

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" As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. "

— Unknown

Text from: http://pockettozine.tumblr.com/

Clear mind

Mind clearing - success.

I love this. I Love my clear mind =)

Blue sky, aww...

Although Melbourne is getting cold.

You probably wouldn't understand, but it's okay

I am suppose to be sleeping or studying (not in the mood as usual), but oh well, decided to write some stuff down.

Constantly disturbed recently, i can't concentrate. I am distracted.

Too much to think about, to forget about, and hopefully to forgive.

Let's believe I can.
I know I can.


* i just realised the title is so emo.
it's ok, i am not a 14 yo teenage hiding round a dark corner trying to kill herself. and i believe tomorrow's gonna be a better day. way better.

CAUTION: THIS IS A RANDOM RANT THAT YOU CAN JUST SKIP

Hey guys! Haven't been here for a while after my Penang trip but well, I am back!

Back to my blog, Back in Melbourne, Back to uni.

This feels real, everything feels real. Time, people, places. They feel real to me. And it's dreadful, I can't face all these. I don't understand how these happened. It was like just 3 months ago I lead an easy life, I feel loved and surrounded, I am all happy and I owned a clear brain, no jealousy no confusion no dillema. The more I thought about it, it feels further, it feels surreal, it feels dreamy, like I had entered a time gap or a blackhole or somethingfor the last few months, I dont know, I don't read sci-fi.

Now that I am back, away far far away from my comfort zone. And these monster of confusion, jealousy and dillema that've been in hibernation for a while pops out gradually. What should I say, what should I do, how should I react, where is my self esteem.

Please stop saying I am independent, please stop saying I am totally happy-go-lucky.

This is overwhelming.

Of course I am happy and I appreciate those lovely words. And I know you're honest.

It's just that you saw only my chirpy cheerful side.

I ain't saying that it's just a facade, and when you start digging and scanning into the wall and column you found all sadness and melancolic. No I ain't saying that.

It's just that I do have my sentimental side.

I laugh a lot, I talk a lot, I scream a lot.

But I think, I cry, and I wishes for the best too.

May be I am just too noisy for you to realised that I do think, Like A LOT.

And you might not believe it (when I am always the one that forgot to bring my sketchbook, pencils and when is my next classs whatsoever), I remembers a lot too.

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I don't know, this is a lil personal.

Whatever. I think I'll just publish this. Who cares it bores you to hell, I warned you. and this is MY blog.

random add-in: I miss you and I love you, my fam!

and Final Words: I am happy right this moment, after all this useless rants like a loser.